When I met my husband, I knew he was called to serve God at a young age. When we courted, I naively told him we could go serve in full time ministry once we married. However, when we got married, the hardship of marriage and life made me renounce my agreement. I felt so condemned and unworthy to serve God.
Have you ever experienced having restless nights, feeling on edge and weary, being full of fear, crying more easily than your usual, being consumed of nervousness and struggling to fully trust in the Lord Jesus with the worries of your life? I have felt these exact feelings more so in my life in the last few months than ever before. Since this past summer, I have felt so much anxiety that it has started to affect me as a person. The consuming feeling of anxiety is one of the most uncomforting feelings ever.